paint your palette blue and grey

hokay, my blog suddenly died on me for one sec.

I am sitting in front of my desktop, no, more like rotting in front of the computer as I stare into the screen and soon, everything just turns into a blur. But yes, It really sucks how time passes so damn quickly. Time is supposed to crawl, not zip past like a freight train, sickening. My holidays are ending. Hell week is starting. oh, the story of my life.

notice I sound like I'm freaking 70 years old and I have snow white hair. In fact, I think I am aging every second. I am so damn old la. my god. 16 years of my life, gone down the drain.

You know what, you're right, I'll admit. I would get jealous. But who am I to get jealous. It was an accident waiting to happen right from the start, right? But I'm not going to let this change anything, even if it means I have to play hide and seek with what I feel. I am a coward, and I won't let you know that, for now at least.

lament, lament, lament.

OMG. I AM FRIGGIN' 16 YEARS OLD AND I AM GOING TO HAVE MAJOR EXAMS IN ABOUT THREE MONTHS YET I AM STILL WASTING MY LIFE AWAY. WHAT IS THIS.

god please help me, i feel my life slipping away from me and no matter how much i try to get it back i can't. i can hear it mocking me and i'm scared. save me from myself.

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