change

I tried to change my blog background colour and I find that yellow suits me best. I'm sorry I've not been the usual sunshiney person of late but I promise it'll get better. :)

I need to stop thinking so much about things. I need to stop bursting into tears everytime I think of you, and you need to stop being so damn nice to me it doesn't help to dissolve the guilt I feel inside. It just makes me feel worse. I listen to "Save Me From Myself" by Christina Aguilera and I feel worseeeeee.

Enough said... I went to (not-so) secret spot with Quekles today. Nothing extravagant, just a simple picnic mat and lemonade, we sat there and enjoyed the seabreeze. I have not done such things with my sister in a long time. Comfortable, and I miss such times.