my eyes are screaming for the sight of you

take me away,
and I'm tired of being all alone and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home.

you know sometimes I do things I regret like crazy. And after I do it, I feel tainted. Its like my Life's report card is stained with all the red marks and the feeling is damn crappy. I wish I could just whiteoff everything and start over, but we all know the fact of life is that it is unfair and we don't always get second chances. I am tired of learning the hard way, of picking up the pieces and cleaning up the mess. I want life to be paved for me, I want someone to tuck me into bed and tell me that everything will be alright. Dear God, I realise that the more I try to push you away, the more I need you. So where are you now?

I'm never good with emotions, it makes me feel uncomfortable and awkward, its smothering and it chokes you up slowly till you slowly crash and burn. I'll get over it, I always do. But for now, I want to bubblewrap myself up and cry and cry and cry.