I keep waiting for you but you never come

sunset skies and movie marathons.

I find myself happiest when I surround myself with the friends. These wonderful goobers fill up every crack and crevice with love and bubblewrap me.

I cannot be left alone like this.

I remember being so excited because you were going.

I remember seeing you and smiling to myself.

I remember feeling down when you only talked to everyone else and not me.

I remember running to the toilet because it was too much and I need to cry.

I remember that evening at dinner time when you sat next to me and I felt like I was invisible even though we were about, 10 centimetres apart.

I remember the night I was sick and you came to my room to check on me.

I remember the night we walked back to the rooms together and you tried to talk but people kept interrupting us.

I remember crying for the wrong reasons that night.

I remember the night we sat down at the balcony and talked and talked.

I remember pretending nothing happened because I didn't want you to feel weird.

I remember crying myself to sleep.

I remember not having a single memory without you.

and,

I remember the night the boy I loved broke my damn heart.

I cannot be left alone like this.