when did your heart go missing?

ssshhhh,

I think I miss you a bit more than I should. I regret not handling it properly, it seems too late to be regretting it now. There never was proper closure, was there? I'm sorry. I guess I was too much of a coward and I ran away in the end.

but you still make me smile silly, I don't know how some people don't change even after so long. I wish I didn't change, I wish I was still able to keep a little bit of whatever I was, to you? Maybe.

I hate how when it was supposed to be me leaving you behind, it turns out I am the one who has been left behind. but its good though, I rather feel like shit instead of you. Always felt I owed you something, I actually feel so ______________ now.

did you understand that? Me neither.