friday nights

Tonight felt weird.

I've been sleeping little and I spend my time existing. Today I got on 14 and didn't really know where I was going, it was as if my brain had tuned into this sleepy, restless frequency and for once in a long time I honestly felt lost.

Meeting Rara and Leer brought back the familiarity of secondary school days talking endlessly about school and boys and the occasional outbursts of "I am so fat!" and just looking at each other and noticing the little changes that have taken place unknowingly. I know I haven't been the best friend, but I'm glad we still put in the effort to meet up. And guess what, for once when we met up we didn't talk about things in the past. It's as if someone wiped clean and burned out the post-its reminding us about OBS and O levels and filled in new ones of current issues like school assignments and Alevels.

Tonight felt like looking through life with a pair of spectacles with a power too low.