Nostalgia with a capital N

And like every other unnecessary worry I spend mulling about and dwelling upon, I find myself drowning in my own subconscious and its invisible shackles chain me down and keep me stationary. It's true you know, the hardest obstacle that keeps anyone from moving forward is themselves. I miss the way you could look at someone and just know. Touch someone and just be. Bask in the sweet nostalgia of the past just because. I don't want to be kept rooted to the mess that should be kept in the crevices of my brain away from the things that are happening now. Please don't mess it up again.

So I sit here and fly my fingers across the plastic keys composing words trying to make you understand how I feel. I'm so tired of all this uncertainty. I'm so tired of myself.

Funny thing is, in all this brokenness, You came through, like a cool gentle breeze on a hot summer's day, and carried away all my worries and turned my frown into a smile. I've been seeking, stumbling, and silly me, how could I forget all I'll ever need is right here with You. So once again, thank you for loving me. :)

Times of refreshing,

here in Your presence,

no greater blessing than being with You

my soul is restored, my mind is renewed,

there's no greater joy, Lord,

than being with You.