So this is coming to me at 3:27 in the morning, completely uncalled for, I know, but, I thought it'd be good to get it off my chest.

I feel extremely inadequate and out of sorts, especially when I'm in school. I can't keep walking around fearing I"ll bump into him. I can't expect everyone else to remain on the same stand as I do, awkward, and scared. So here's what I'll do.