"I disapprove!"
Two months on, marvel at your own stupidity. Laugh it off, pretend he’s a great drinking story. “I met a man who tried to cut off his own thumb and refused to take medication for bipolar disorder because he thought it’d make him less special.”
Find somebody else, with kind eyes and a sweet smile, with curly hair and warm arms. Someone who treats you like gold and thinks the world of you.
Wonder if you’ll ever be able to reciprocate those feelings.
Make believe you’re brave.
Slowly fall in love with him, his kindness. His generosity. Your stopped heart shudders and groans and starts up again.
It works. It runs.
Be happy. Sand the hurt smooth, cover it with putty.
Be happy. Oh God, please be happy.
Find somebody else, with kind eyes and a sweet smile, with curly hair and warm arms. Someone who treats you like gold and thinks the world of you.
Wonder if you’ll ever be able to reciprocate those feelings.
Make believe you’re brave.
Slowly fall in love with him, his kindness. His generosity. Your stopped heart shudders and groans and starts up again.
It works. It runs.
Be happy. Sand the hurt smooth, cover it with putty.
Be happy. Oh God, please be happy.
I am so jaded, no it shouldn't be like this.
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I've been trying to keep memories in written notes and songs, trying to live life unguarded and fearless but sometimes it backfires on me and then I just implode again. We need more rainy weather here.
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