sink/swim

My feelings are like the waves; the ebb and flow, violently crashing upon the shore and silently creeping away. They lull me back and forth, back and forth into extreme euphoria and when it recedes, it wipes away all emotion till I'm void. They scare and excite, but mostly taunt me till my heart's bruised black and blue from being flung around so carelessly. I don't know how else to deal with it, so why won't you just let me drown... because I'm so tired of wildly thrashing around trying to save myself.