speckled mess

I've been having so much trouble trying to pen my thoughts down. Most of the time I lose an idea in a fleeting second, or a clouded distraction comes along and whatever string of words I found genius dissolves into nothing but a clever idea. I think I'm losing it. I used to be able to sit here and churn out half decent wordy posts about anything. Now sulking and being "emo" doesn't even spark imagination. Is this what's become of my state of mind?

I have a stack of SAT guidebooks sitting at the edge of my desk begging for attention, and a job I detest  with people I miss and someplace else I'd rather be. This year I'm going to do things that I want to do just because I want to and because it's going to get me somewhere not by merit but with noble experiences showered in hope and love. I am signing off this resignation to the rat race. 

Lol, who am I kidding.