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Have you ever had an asthma attack? It's a slow building tension at the base of your throat; like someone tied a tourniquet around your windpipe and is tightening the noose. You take slow, controlled breaths because anything more and your throat feels like it's on fire, and you choke on your own poor attempt to breathe. A spluttering cough breaks loose and you struggle to silence it with not much finesse and the whole package comes knocking - the coughing frenzy, the light headedness.

So you kinda just hold your breath and try not to breathe anymore. Hoping it'd stop on it's own, but the next attack builds again without invitation.

This was a pointless post, really, but I needed to talk about something before I throw myself out of the window. Tonight's another one of those nights I feel silenced and bothered, but there's no one to talk to. I've been getting a lot of these nights recently. Dear God, a little help here?