shut up

I'm tired. Tired of wishing that things would eventually work out. Tired of searching for explanations and answers to questions I can't even comprehend. Completely worn out of waiting for you.. everyone to grow up, heck, for myself to grow up and out of this. Fine, I'll admit it. My heart's not big enough for all of you. I wish it were, but for now it isn't and this is what you have. You have me and all my shortcomings and inadequacy. I never know what to say and I'll always be sad about something because happiness is boring and just for the record this isn't a competition about who's more upset because wow, ~surprise~ the first prize's depression. I just want everything to be ok. This isn't it. Be ok, please just be okay.