good vibes

This feels good. The need to write, to put thoughts into words, for the words to come freely and unprovoked. The year has begun and already I don't know where the past 4 days went, and surprisingly, it hasn't been as intimidating as it normally would be. Change for once, is welcomed. Is this what they call growing up? It's only 2 short months before I start out again, on my own this time for a whole new adventure. Okay, so maybe going to further my studies isn't quite the adventure like touring around the world is but there are so many new experiences I'm going to go through, people I'm going to meet, feelings to swing to and fro from, new footpaths to walk alongside my Saviour as I strive to grow deeper in love with Him this year. God has been faithful and true, and I have been learning so much about love. I've taken shaky steps to get back to where I am now. It's been a harrowing journey. I have stumbled through midnights sitting on the floor of my bathroom sobbing about failed friendships and poured my attention into insatiable pools of distraction and despair. It's been one painful lesson after the other, but without keeping my gaze fleeting, I want big solid steps.



... Jokes, all I can think about now is wanting to watch the Disneyland firework show.