rippled daydreams

some thoughts:

I watched the wedding highlight reel of one of my oldest and dearest friends, and a part of me was filled with a joy I can't quite express. I'm so glad she's found someone to laugh and live life with.

I think about marriage and the paths all my friends are on now and I am genuinely filled with a deep, deep appreciation and anticipation for the relationship that comes with Christ as his bride.

watched another reel about en elderly couple displaying what it means to love in sickness and in health, and my heart swells and swells... but I also wonder if I'm ever going to be in companionship like that.

then I think of my parents and how I cannot stop ageing and how that makes me feel sad, and I can't stop tears from welling up. #crybaby

I think about how these thoughts make what's on my heart plain as day. Is it okay? To be so emotional about things, to feel and worry about wonder about the what-ifs and be perpetually distracted.