A Romance Of Daily Things #5 - Importance

I don't understand your expectations. You tell me you're not ready, yet you expect me to remember important dates and events because you say you want to feel important too. You tell me you're not sure about "stepping into the boat" because you feel like you need to prepare and plan for the what ifs ahead. You send me prayers unsolicited, but I'm afraid of telling you it makes me feel uncomfortable.

Perhaps this is you not understanding me enough. That these things that are important to you might not be as important to me. Or the perennial conflict I'll feel because self awareness can't be taught.

This was the tension in the grey area that I hate. When we're just moving along at different speeds and you have a timeline made up in your head you're not telling me about. Why? Is this what you think "leading" means?

I can't be the lead in your story if I don't even know what the script is.