reincarnation

 I find myself tempted to wish for another life. I want another shot, another chance to “get things right”, and I know, I know we only get one life but this life feels awful. I know it’s not all the time, and I know it’s mostly amplified when I don’t look after myself. I’m prescribed more self love, and it is ironic that my homework includes writing down things I felt I did well in the day. If I had to score my day, it was maybe a 5/10, neutral, plain, I don’t feel like I’m living an authentic life. And I know the chemical crazies in my brain are probably driving me into this spiral, but how to keep myself from slipping. How to hold steady and ✨trust the process ✨

I keep oscillating from being hopeful to thinking this is all some psychological bullshit but I am trying! So hard! 
No way but through??